The Mind of Vertiago

Forgive me for my selfishness. One full month later and here we are, here we are. It hasn't been an immediate adjustment, I still find myself habitually involving your name in matters that would've normally included you. My brain tells me that you cannot undo a habit that was second nature for 5 years, in a single month. My habits are simply met with a sigh as my lack of belief slowly starts to fill. I try my best not to think about it, to think about you. I avoid looking at photos while consoling my daily routines with the idea of better being the day after tomorrow. When it kicks in?  Ah man.. what is this life really about.  I pray that God opens his arms to you with a warm embrace. You will forever be in my heart and my memory. I love you forever.  Rest in Peace Mita I genuinely cannot believe I'm writing this...

25 I need the inspiration that resulted in the creation of man, the inspiration that resulted in the creation of the oceans, the sky, sunsets, trees, every species that walks the Earth. I need the inspiration of the creation of every instrument that blesses our ears with beautiful tunes and peaceful sounds. The inspiration of every created language, every... Ofcourse I remember. You would swear it happened yesterday, my memory would never betray me from trying to re-experience something so blissful. It was like a dream where you and I were in our own world. All it took was for you to look in my direction with the intention of trying to catch my eye. Success found you very early as I was on the exact same mission. Everything slowed down. I could see every letter of every word that surrounded me. I noticed every colour that mixed together to form another. I could hear my heartbeat as it attempted to communicate to me that I was seeing something special. It was you. I remember you. Your h...

I don't write in this blog for any type of praise or recognition, which is why I feel weird whenever somebody mentions it to me. Some people tell me that my writing is good, which I appreciate but I don't consider the weight of their compliment because it does not compare even slightly to what I wanted to say, but did not have the words to express it. I wish silence could be read, then people would understand me. But for now I use words. This blog isn't any type of diary entry nor do I consider it a form of art. I view these as my raw introspective thoughts of my most passionate phases. I try to write them in an encrypted way so it can't be too obvious for the reader, and it leaves room for different versions of interpretation. I do wish silence could be read, then people would understand me. But for now I use words. The blog maybe makes up for 20% of what I feel, the other 80% gets swallowed up and stored for later outbursts of which I hope can be understood. If I star...

Music is everything to me.  My best friend, my soul mate, my lover, my beginning and my end. She has always been there for me, not once attempting to leave my side during the good and bad. Whenever I speak to her, she catapults me to the sky, forcing me to fight against the wind. The wind hits my face with brutal force, pulling my skin, making me struggle for my next breath. But I tend to forgive her more often than not because of what my eyes see in the process. I am blessed with the most beautiful sunset imaginable. The warmth painted across the sky is indescribable. So moving. The bright orange of this amazing sunset manages to penetrate straight through towards my heart.  But somehow it doesn’t enter… She stands across the room, waiting for her next move. I look up at her, anxiety is creeping up. The song is almost over. Wait… this is supposed to end? What do you mean it’s supposed to end? Don’t let me go, gravity is not kind to humans from this high in the sky. Don’t let ...

Section 18 Sunset Avenue TMOV 10 May 2024 Dear Unkwuhuig, I hold hope that this letter finds you well. It's been a while since we spoke and I thought since that's the case, it would be necessary to reach out to you in this fashion. We didn't leave on the greatest terms the last time we spoke, I just hope that you understood the angle that I was taking. Nevertheless, how are things with you? I hope everything has been fair to you, as they say, you reap what you sow, only you will be able to judge what is fair for you.  But the purpose of this letter is to remind you of how unfair you've been to me. I don't want us to be on bad terms again, but I have to express my honesty. You have been the birth giver of fear in my life, you have spoken confusion onto me, making me doubt every choice I make. Everything I leave behind is questioned by you with the undertone of loss. I know you meant no harm, I know you mean no harm, but I have to express my honesty. I have encountere...

"- Even though you share the same blood is it worth the time? Like who got your best interest? Like how much are you dependent? How clutch are the people that say they love you? And who pretending? How tough is your skin when they turn you in? Do you show forgiveness? What brush do you bend when dusting your shoulders from being offended? What kind of den did they put you in when the lions start hissing? What kind of bridge did they burn? Revenge or your mind when it's mentioned?" Yes (No) No (Yes) N/A