A Letter to Benjamin Raphael

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I don't write in this blog for any type of praise or recognition, which is why I feel weird whenever somebody mentions it to me. Some people tell me that my writing is good, which I appreciate but I don't consider the weight of their compliment because it does not compare even slightly to what I wanted to say, but did not have the words to express it. I wish silence could be read, then people would understand me. But for now I use words.


This blog isn't any type of diary entry nor do I consider it a form of art. I view these as my raw introspective thoughts of my most passionate phases. I try to write them in an encrypted way so it can't be too obvious for the reader, and it leaves room for different versions of interpretation. I do wish silence could be read, then people would understand me. But for now I use words.


The blog maybe makes up for 20% of what I feel, the other 80% gets swallowed up and stored for later outbursts of which I hope can be understood. If I started expressing the other 80% on this blog, it would be a never ending wave of misunderstandings which I avoid by all means. But all in all, these are lessons. Lessons that I learn and can't help but share, hoping the reader can relate and work from there. When I say "reader" I mean myself, because when I go back and read these posts, I keep track of those moments and bursts of passionate phases, and grow from there. 


This blog is more for me than for you.


- Benjamin

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